Time & World Since Cecil Died

Thursday was the 4th week since Cecil died and tomorrow, April 15th, will be one month since he died. I do not believe it can be so short a time and also believe it cannot be that long a time.

I remember after Jessica was born, I was amazed on the ride home how the world did NOT look different. I was in awe of the change in my life and could not believe the rest of the world had not acknowledged this remarkable change. The world was clearly brighter to me. As I look around me now, I am amazed the world, again, does not seem to be aware of the incredible change since Cecil died. The world is clearly dimmer to me.

This week many colleagues I had not seen since Cecil died expressed their sympathy. I told them it was ‘a private club’ since no one can understand the loss of their love until it happens to them. One agreed she did not want to be a member of the club. I do not want to be a member of club either.